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hii, i'm Matson i'm insecure. i hate walking into a room with lots of people that i don't know. i feel like they're staring at me and noticing my flaws. my parents dont trust me and think that i am in capable they want me to be perfect but im not i try my best but for them that doesnt count they want me to succeed my best but i cant because i feel that its not going to change i love being different but people think im to different i have had my dreams crushed by so many people im thinking of just giving up on my dreams and not trying at all just to try and be normal but i want my derams so bad that i would give any thing to have them because every time some one hears what i want to be they laugh and think i kidding i play along but deep inside my selfestem droped again and i slowly slowly my dreams are dissapearing into the far off distance i'm growing up and changing now, faster than you'll ever think. im no longer daddys little girl who like rock& roll im the girl who dreams of hiphop i am listening to the"trash music" that every parent dreads i'm scared of the future. i don't always make the right choices. i can be very happy, act like i'm on drugs, or be just the opposite, and want to bleed out my feelings in tears. i have no clue who i am or what i'm here for. i can't keep a straight face, ever. i often try to hard for people to like me. it doesn't always turn out the way you hope it would. if you're a guy and i like you, i'm most likely going to the most awkward girl you'll ever meet. i wish i could stand out more, though i'm afraid of trying. i can't lie for my LIFE. that could also explain me spilling my heart out. i think i have add cause i cant focas durring school and my grades suffer because of it. but of course my parents dont believe me and i suffer. my parents hate my friends cause they are not what they want me to be there for they are not going to inffluence me the way they want. they claim that i'm 'beautiful enough, so i shouldn't have to change anything about me.'and i shouldnt turn into a whole new person but they dont understand that that "new person" is acctually still the same girl but her eyes have been opened and she sees the world different than she used to. i'm probably not worth your time. try me  |
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- Current Residence: i wanna ice cuba
- Interests: music
- Favourite band or musician: Aiden
- Favourite poet or writer: Ellen Hopkins
- Favourite style of art: Fan Art
- MP3 player of choice: Ipod
- Favourite game: Mario kart
- Favourite gaming platform: Wii
- Favourite cartoon character: idk im pretty animated lol
- Personal Quote: Fuck it
- Email: whoaitsmatson
- AIM: whoaitsmatson
- MSN: whoaitsmatson@aim.com
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Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
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What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
~Rascal Flatts
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Say What you Will of me Ill always have juggalo family <3Chris<3
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What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
~Rascal Flatts
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What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
~Rascal Flatts
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Say What you Will of me Ill always have juggalo family <3Chris<3
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